I haven't worked this all out in my head yet, but I'm (kinda) convinced that Hal's descent into communicative impotence is related in some way to what the JOI wraith "tells" Gately about figurants (pp. 834-838). Basically, Hal's existential crisis -- triggered at least in part by marijuana withdrawal -- pushes him off "center stage" by robbing him of the purpose/meaning he's known all his life (but which had been supplied by others). It's a mid-life crisis at 17-18, and Hal is rendered mute to the outside world until he settles on a new, self-defined "role" / purpose as a "character" in his life's drama -- until then, he is just silent "furniture" in the drama constructed by others, albeit furniture that plays tennis very well.
1. The wraith's observation (at 834) that "he can more than Identify with an animate man's feelings of communicative impotence and mute strangulation" is a perfect description of Hal in YOG. Hal isn't insane; from his inner monologue we know he is reasoning well, remembering his vocabulary -- not to mention what he's been coached to do at the interview, namely, remain in mute strangulation so as not to frighten the U-AZ folks. Like he feared in his Ethel Merman dream, he is able to process internally but not communicate with 3rd parties.
2. In defining figurants, the wraith says their presence "really revealed that the camera, like any eye, has a perceptual corner, a triage of who's important enough to be seen and heard vs. just seen." My theory is that Hal's crisis following marijuana withdrawal is an internal, meaning-of-life-and-where-I-fit-in crisis; he once accepted (before being old enough to ask "why?") that he was Hal J. Incadenza, tennis player, possible pro. Now he has lost that mooring and doesn't know who he is (note that in one of the AA sections it says the complaint that people "don't know who they are" turns out to be a real issue and a common one at that).
3. The wraith points out that, if a figurant tried to break out of its "cage" by starting to speak or gesture in a bid to communicate, one of the "audible" characters would "bolt over from stage-center and apply restraints or the Heineken Maneuver or CPR..." This, of course, is precisely what happens when Hal tries to speak at the U-AZ interview -- they treat his outbreak as a medical emergency, try to restrain him, etc. He is different from them, the "audible" main figures in the interview room, people who know their place in the drama because they have a ROLE, a CHARACTER to play -- note that Hal refers to them all by their titles (Director of Composition, etc) -- while Hal is adrift, not knowing his place/purpose, and therefore not having a "speaking part" in his own drama.
4. And, most obviously, the wraith tells Gately that he "had seen his own personal youngest offspring, a son, the one most like him, the one most marvelous and frightening to him, becoming a figurant, toward the end." (p. 837) This description, which echos JOI's "hallucination" of Hal not making any noise when apparently speaking referred to in the professional conversationalist episode, parallels Hal's YOG communication problem; the wraith felt horror at "watching [his] own offspring open his moth and have nothing come out." Again, it is an existential, not physical crisis being described, in which Hal "retreat[s] to the periphery of life's frame." The wraith makes clear that the communication he sought with Hal was on a deep, genuine, emotional, open level -- but that Hal got progressively more "hidden" and silent, a fact which the wraith blamed the Moms. This seems a clear description of Hal's emotional detachment, his inability to access and experience his own emotions. I'd have to double-check the timeline, but I think this movement-towards-figurant happens roughly the same time as Hal's plateau-jumping tennis improvement -- in other words, his real self is slowly being silenced as he internalizes the role others have cast for him.
The problem, of course, is that -- to the outside world, although perhaps not to Himself, if his "delusion" of Hal's communication problems during YT-SDB is to be believed -- Hal does not have the figurant communication problem during all the years he is assiduously following others' script for his life-as-tennis-prodigy. I think the answer here is related to Hal's observation about starting out at ETA before being old enough to question the "why?" of the kids' roles. Until he reached a certain maturity, he was a fully-audible, if self-unaware, actor in the tennis career drama crafted by the authority figures Hal so liked to please. By the end, however, he is attaining some emotional maturity, asking the "Why" questions, and experiencing the "who am I and what is my purpose?" existential crisis. His communication breakdown comes when he tries to confront the reality of who he really is, but is unable to come up with a meaningful substitute for "Hal, tennis player" -- he is now only a figurant, going through the motions scripted by others, until he can figure things out and gain self-knowledge.
5. As far as "something I ate," I think it's metaphorical. I focus on the "call it..." that proceeds those words, which seems to be a way of saying "here's a metaphor for you." I think he may be referring to his vision of the rooms full of meat (and other stuff) that his body will consume in a lifetime -- his existential crisis of "am I just an organic machine powered by this enormous quantity of food, destined to produce this vast quantity of waste, of am I something more, something with a meaning and purpose?" The "something I ate" bit seems to be a wry in-joke to himself, referring to the existential eye-opener of that moment.
I dunno if this makes sense or is even internally consistent, but it seems to me it is more in line with the questing after a new kind of personal truth through fiction that was DFW's enterprise than does a chemical break with reality, for instance. Hal is struggling to communicate because he has abandoned his old assumptions and the meaning of life assigned to him by others. Ultimately, it's also a more hopeful view, in that it suggests Hal will be able to re-integrate with society once he figures things out on his own terms -- again, a theme which I find parallel to DFW's project in fiction generally.
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